Don’t read into this

Lonely at night, when I’m alone and out

I’ll wear my dark lipstick

and my fears wear out

I wish for hope,

so bright to come by

the darkness awaits

I fear it’ll go by,

So dark, so bright,

much fear, all doubt.

You’ll come, he won’t

I’ll live, he falls out.

Promise, tears

they break, all lies

Just my conscience

makeup, makes by

Make no fear, doubt shrouds all

you’ll win, I’ll fail

I’ll watch you out

This doesn’t rhyme, so stop.


Oh Shoot! I’m playing that song again, more butterflies or more heart ache?

I’ve been meaning to write a blog for a sufficiently long time now. I wanted to do so sans the pretense of soy lattes in hipster coffees shops (200 INR for a coffee??! I can buy shoes at SN for that much!) AND I finally did it!This is my first post. And no, it wasn’t an epiphany or a deeper spiritual enlightening, I did it because I started playing THAT song again! :S

‘We Just Don’t Care’ by ‘John Legend’ aka My man candy, this song has meant only thing in the past, butterflies. Lots and lots of butterflies. Needless to say, I may have some cocoons waiting to burst open right now but does this mean good times ahead or is it a warning sign?

The last time I had butterflies the feeling ended with a trans-continental-heartbreaking-messy-teary-hungover-disaster -_- I make logical wise decisions with much foresight in all other matters pertaining to my life but when it comes to these dratted butterflies, I am but always at a loss. Maybe I AM making a mountain out of a molehill, but these flutters won’t let me settle otherwise! 

Giggling over text messages and awaiting phone calls with almost pitiable teenage anxiety, right now I cannot help but enjoy every note and every lyric in this song. Should I take control and shake it off? or should I just ‘go with the flow’ ? I honestly have no idea, and I don’t think I want to make that decision 🙂 for right now, I guess I’ll just enjoy the song on repeat and dwell in a safe haven- where wishes do come true and I am a size 4 again!

Cheers to you if you took the time to read this! More coming soon!Image